yEEpINg

first of all, i cant believe that i actually found the shopaholic book in my uni library.. yays!! and i cant believe that i actually finished it even before starting to study for my exams, which is on sunday btw.. it is all going to end soon, yup.. i was just browsing tru frenster, and this thought stuck to me… looking back at pics of sisters of frens, who are now at the lovely age of sixteen, it stuck back to me of how things were back when i was 16. there were sum, who was naturally pretty, without actually trying to hard, and there were some, who were just trying a tad bit too hard. i guess it still happens now. people trying so hard to be someone they are not, just to be thought as the cool and in person. haha,. i think that in fact, i did try hard to fit in too, but i guess that i was just not attracting any flies that i was suppose to, or a specific fly. but what the heck now anyway. but i gues now that i dun really bother to please others, like doing sumting that i dun want to, i guess tat is life… neway, vito is getting bigger and really naughty, but he still loves ambushing people from all corners of the house. not to mention that he has two new frens from down the hall, two really hyperactive dogs, haha.. and he is such a rascal, have u heard of any cat who doesnt eat tuna? well, vito refuses to eat tuna. sticks up his nose at it. only takes sardin and seafood platter. gosh. so pampered.

yest, wendy asked me to blog about sanusi’s class, all throughout his class we were busy laughing at how he speaks english… he pronounces onion as 0-nee-ON.. bahasa baku, aisle as AI-SEL, emphasis as EM-pa-sis.. and so forth..

but later at night, i received a rather disturbing sms from someone.. that person is actually my …., not sum stalker cum rapist.. she gave me some really shocking news.. and when i heard it, i cried. not because i was sad for that person, but sad for the person who was affected by what the other person did. i used to be so close to this someone, but when i heard what this person did, i just wish that i had never knew this person, so that all of us, even including me, wont have to be so hurt by this person’s actions. was it just plain ignorant? i just keep wondering why?? i dont know. i dont hate this person, but i have seem to lost all my respect for this particular person, knowing the pain that this person has inflicted on the people who had loveD and careD so much. i hope that one day, this person will look back and regret for what this person has done.

neway, my car is now officially sitting at home and collecting dust. but im not going home just yet.

this sms that was sent to me really cheered me up.. it read,

"hey.. just thought of u… and some sweet old memories while clearing up my warzone here in sban. i found an essay which i wrote in tuition or class… n passed it to u for inspection n u wrote lotsa comments on it.. gosh those were the days we were so young man… sigh i kinda miss those times we used to hang out and chat bout silly things. everyone seem to have their own lives now but well at least we r still good pals rite. anyway, take care ya. hope to cya…"

haha.. yea jess, i really do miss those times, where we used to laugh and talk about things like betty liong’s tuition and its events in it, which somehow always revolved around mr eh, haha, god noes why the hell was i so infatuated?? with him that time… it was not like he even gave me a second look right jess? why didnt u just shake me really hard and say, wake up yp!!! and also the times where we used to laugh about "biscuit factory" and "bab’s".. omg, how u used to kacau me.. and at one time it was bleh… looking back, i think that our whole teenage life was revolved around that guy, huh? remember that time when i was in ur house, and u called him? but little did he noe that i was listening on the other line.. and heard every darn word he said.. omg. and how i use to ask u to spy on him for me in class. and remember what u did to the guy who sat beside u in tuition? haha.. i seem to have wasted 5- 6 years? of my life on him… and remember the times when i used to camp at ur place, and we would cycle around rj, and i had to use the kiddy bike, coz i cant cycle, which also caused the accident of me crashing into the bus… and remember that time jc’s bro called u at 12am, and ur dad picked up the phone and said that he was going to blow his trumpet?? hhhaahaha.. that was so funny, i think ur parents did not have that much trouble with che che and mei mei right? and what about the time that we thought that we had to join rc cause the uniform was way cool? only to be cheated when our uniforms turned out to look like nurses outfits… and i miss the times when i had to teach u maths the hard way, and only after like 10 times explaining would u understand..  or the worse was that i had to cheat with u on mr chans paper, and write my answers on the ruler for u. and what about azizahs tuition? and that guy with the similiar name with me? but nothing beats the time of report card day, where u got like a really bad grade for chemistry, and ur mum said,"who is her useless chemistry teacher?" and the teacher said,"i am". those seem to be the memories still hatched into my mind, if not embedded.. after that we seem to have drifted apart, till u were in australia that we got back with each other, however it seems a lot harder to hang out with each other anymore, but i noe that deep down, u are one truly great fren.. we did the craziest and dumbest things.. but those were the best days of my life.. thanks for ur friendship. i guess that frenship doesnt need photos to show other people of how much we do think of each other as great pals, its just a feeling that is shared by two of us.

ps: names have been changed to protect the identity of the suspects.. haha..

this sms that was sent to me really cheered me up.. it read,

"hey.. just thought of u… and some sweet old memories while clearing up my warzone here in sban. i found an essay which i wrote in tuition or class… n passed it to u for inspection n u wrote lotsa comments on it.. gosh those were the days we were so young man… sigh i kinda miss those times we used to hang out and chat bout silly things. everyone seem to have their own lives now but well at least we r still good pals rite. anyway, take care ya. hope to cya…"

haha.. yea jess, i really do miss those times, where we used to laugh and talk about things like betty liong’s tuition and its events in it, which somehow always revolved around mr eh, haha, god noes why the hell was i so infatuated?? with him that time… it was not like he even gave me a second look right jess? why didnt u just shake me really hard and say, wake up yp!!! and also the times where we used to laugh about "biscuit factory" and "bab’s".. omg, how u used to kacau me.. and at one time it was bleh… looking back, i think that our whole teenage life was revolved around that guy, huh? remember that time when i was in ur house, and u called him? but little did he noe that i was listening on the other line.. and heard every darn word he said.. omg. and how i use to ask u to spy on him for me in class. and remember what u did to the guy who sat beside u in tuition? haha.. i seem to have wasted 5- 6 years? of my life on him… and remember the times when i used to camp at ur place, and we would cycle around rj, and i had to use the kiddy bike, coz i cant cycle, which also caused the accident of me crashing into the bus… and remember that time jc’s bro called u at 12am, and ur dad picked up the phone and said that he was going to blow his trumpet?? hhhaahaha.. that was so funny, i think ur parents did not have that much trouble with che che and mei mei right? and what about the time that we thought that we had to join rc cause the uniform was way cool? only to be cheated when our uniforms turned out to look like nurses outfits… and i miss the times when i had to teach u maths the hard way, and only after like 10 times explaining would u understand..  or the worse was that i had to cheat with u on mr chans paper, and write my answers on the ruler for u. and what about azizahs tuition? and that guy with the similiar name with me? but nothing beats the time of report card day, where u got like a really bad grade for chemistry, and ur mum said,"who is her useless chemistry teacher?" and the teacher said,"i am". those seem to be the memories still hatched into my mind, if not embedded.. after that we seem to have drifted apart, till u were in australia that we got back with each other, however it seems a lot harder to hang out with each other anymore, but i noe that deep down, u are one truly great fren.. we did the craziest and dumbest things.. but those were the best days of my life.. thanks for ur friendship. i guess that frenship doesnt need photos to show other people of how much we do think of each other as great pals, its just a feeling that is shared by two of us.

ps: names have been changed to protect the identity of the suspects.. haha..

Currently on the progress of my last project for the semester, lecturer said had to work doubly hard, which is hard for me, coz have been sick the past few days, and so have been sleeping early and waking up late, eventhough with attempts of eu wing trying to wake me up every morning, sighs. its already sunday and tmro is the day i hate the most, which is monday. Mondays are a dread because it comes AFTER sunday, which is SABBATH day, and thats the day dat god told us to go to church and rest. but in my lecturers opinion, sunday AND saturdays are the days to like finish 300% of ur work. sighs, but as someone told me, it is ur hard work now that will pay off in ten years time… or maybe for me, even longer than that, i hope he is right. i dont know why, but he seems to see something in me that i dont, something that i wish i was, but im not, but he sees that in me. been trying to call nal but cant get her, she shud be here in penang already. darn! and now i dont know how to reach her, coz i dont have her hp number, if she has one. well, its all my fault, i promised to call her but i did not, sighs. why does my life always seem so busy? and its not like i am so happening and spend my free time clubbing that i am so darn busy. i seem to be like the most unhappening person in history, currently locked up in my room, and surviving on dutch lady chocolate milk, explains the weight lost. have started driving around in penang the last two weeks, thanks to my kor who even dares to let me touch his car, the three days, i went to queensbay and gurney plaza, but the worst thing is that i forgot where i had parked my car. my next aim will be up batu ferringhi, to buy rm4 dvds. but i guess i dont have the skills yet. will be starting my training on the 23rd april, and i hope this time, i will learn alot more than what i did the last time around. seems to me that this semester is coming to an end, and i cant wait!! its been some time since ive gone home.. or even seen my bf, but time always seems to be a factor. sighs. i have to make more time for the people who matter to me.

lately, i have been really dissapointed in some people in my life.. i tend to have faith in people, that if u do good to them, they would in return repay ur kindness. it seems that this so called kiasu attitude has been really catching up with people today, i guess that its called, survival of the fittest. its seems to me that the phrase, keep ur frens close but ur enemies closer, is so true. its not that i do have any enemies, but i guess that people around me, who i thought were the closest friends to me, seem to dissapointed me a lot. well, i guess that i should stop with this childish attitude or thought of mine, that i think that friends can be trusted. they will be there for u, through thick and thin. however, i beg to differ, the only people who were with me truout this three years was my kor, my bf, my family and my friends back home. well, i guess that in this world, friends do not exist to me anymore.only a handful of them will be cherished, and those are the ones from way back in high skool, i guess that if uni life is like this, i dont even want to go out into the working world.

my room is so damn darn messy, that the only place that i can actually use is my bed.. which i use most of the time.. it is like the messiest place in the whole unit, or maybe the whole fourteenth floor, or maybe even at university heights.. everything is everwhere.. and all over the place.. and last week i even had vito staying over my place.. and i guess from a cats point of view, he couldnt stand the mess either.. but guess what?? i dont care.. coz the whole room belongs to me! haha..

After like nearly a year, i met up with my pal, jess. its not like we dont keep in touch, but time seems to be a factor. One working in kl, and the other studying in penang, althought the smses we send to each other does keep us in touch.

As teenagers, we used to talk about the crushes we had, and the cute guys we met over the weekend in church, in the foodcourt, on the bus ( ahem ), etc.. And now, at 23, we do still talk about boys, but somehow, the guys we talk about now seem to be like only the guys that we are both dating. sighs. When we were grabbing a bite in mc d’s, a waiter passed us a napkin, with his name and handphone written on it. and it said, call me if ur interested… i mean, how lame can that be? haha, jess, if ure reading this, which u will definetely not, u wil be laughing ur head of over that incident. nvm, im sure the other two jess will report this back at u.

and we went over to meet harin, and we also talk about the same guys, suddenly, our world seems to only concern this few people. i guess that as we grow up, it is those who are dear to us that we still care and bother to keep in touch with, while the others would just be people that we hear about from someone else. it seems sad that we grow up with so many frens, but end up with only a handful.. and yes, i like sorry i cant meet up with u now, maybe in april k.. and im not sure that i can even finish my work, which is due monday. so, a very unhappy chinese new year to me.. haha..

at around 2pm today, i was in the studio, in the company of wee kiat and gang. i had just taken up my lunch from the interior design studio. my housemate pei juen was kind enought to tapau for me..

as i was about to bite into my zinger maxx, my hp rang, it was from my kor. his first sentence was," if ur sleeping now pls wake up.. its an emergency!!" i was like i AM awake.. and he was like.. my cat fell from the balcony. i was like, omg.. in total shock.. coz since this 3 months, ive grown very attached to his cat.. although it can be a pest at times.. he might not survive his fall from the SEVENTH floor, but i really hope that i will get to see him again, he is the naughtiest cat alive, but well loved by everyone.

haigh.. yet another day of unending work of measurement drawing.. diyana couldnt make it today, so she asked me to drive her car to cikgu mat’s house in lebuh acheh.. unfortunately, out of 9 people in the group, only two can drive. since one driver was down, they had no choise but to appoint me as the vice driver. haha.. i hope i did not scare those other four people in the car, as this is my first time driving all the way totown. to some, it might seem just like any other day, but to me, this was an adventure.

cikgu mat is the cicit of sheikh omar basheer, who was the first mufti in penang. thankfully, cikgu mat seems like a nice pakcik, as he was willing to share with us his stories. he even showed is a paku that was located above the door entrance. he said that it can never be taken out, as the paku was used to capture any evil things that tries to get in.

cikgu mat’s house is really old, as there was someone who had even seen a something that was not human praying in his house, since it used to be a place to mengaji al quran.

this brings me back to last sunday, when i had the opportunity to visit kellie’s castle. being in there felt really spooky.. so i gues that i shall not wanna say anything else…

i hate doing wan b’s assignment. his assignments needs to be original and so individually done, that it seems hard even to me. sighs.

my kor is going for his final interview on wednesday. well, i really hope that he gets the job. everyone hopes that he gets the job. and it will do him good to get away from here. . and to start anew. i believe that he deserves much better.

few days ago, i was having dinner with my kor kor when he suddenly asked me how i met my bf. only after 4 years did he ask me this. kor kor seems to like him. everyone in my family does. haha.. everyone is actually just my mum and my kor kor. kor kor told me that my bf is a guy for keeps. haha. this is the first time that kor kor has said that. maybe after he saw how eu wing bonded well with his miow miow ( thats what i call vito ).

i miss fish ball noodles.. hope to go back soon..